Simba!!
I dont understand. Haha
That moment when you realize you forgot to read your scriprures yesterday and your heart breaks a little :( Klayton!! haha holy smokes that week went by fast!! Um, so guess where i am right now! Vegas!! Party! haha we came for tiffany's 21 birthday, it's been fun :) We drove here saturday and we are leaving today. Um.. saturday we mostly just walked around the strip, and tiff wore a sash that said "21 today!" and people would yell happy birthday! and we would all go, "woooo!" haha yesterday we went to the pool and tanned...it's february and it's warm enough to tan!! 82 degrees! i love it. Then we went to see the dolphins and tigers and lions at our hotel!! it was so cool! i've never seen a dolphin before so i was squealing with excitement! haha i have been taking lots of videos that you can watch later, i took a zillion of the dolphins cause they are so cool! after that we went to body worlds! Have you ever been?! we should go if you haven't. It was so amazing! i didn't realize how spiritual it was going to be...but the whole time i couldn't stop thinking how amazing god made us. He made every little vein and bone and tendon...and it all works so perfectly together. I also liked the fetus part...that is probably weird and i'm sure some people think that is wrong to have the exhibit, but again i was so amazed at how crazy it is that the little bunch of cells at 26 days can turn into a human in 9 months! it's really a miracle!! i love it!! After that we went to new york new york and rode the roller coaster!! it was so fun! Me and tiff rode in the front car and it was so fun! have you ever been to vegas before? i came once when i was little but i dont really remember it. I don't know, it has been really fun, but they call it sin sity for a reason and i dont like that part of it. it is gross and disgusting how most people think and act here. Don't worry we are being good :) we just like dolphins...not alcohol. Haha how was your week?? i thought of you on valentines day! and every day but mostly valentines day ha i miss you a whole ton. Hey guess what my mom got me for valentines day! a preparing to go through the temple book! i'm excited to read it, you can read it with me when you get home if you want :) hey you turkey! i never got any voice recordings last week! i was sad! ha that's ok though i forgive you, i didn't have time alone to do one this week, so i will do 2 for next week!! 7 weeks left! that is nuts!! how is everything going? are you good? are you happy? do you still love me? ;) ohhhh!!! alright...so the other day my roommate megan was home and she had a couple friends over that want to move into our house when i get married and move out. So anyways, i wasn't home but tiffany was in the kitchen and she could hear their whole conversation and they were talking bad about me!! :( they were talking about how you aren't going to want me when you get back and that it's going to be embarrassing for me when you dont want me anymore and i've planned our whole wedding. Ouch. I wanted to cry when tiff told me. I was so angry. They have noooo idea! that's what bugs me the most, that they think they know everything and they dont even know us. So i got mad and they found out that i knew and they made cupcakes and apologized...ha yeesh. I'm glad that they apologized though, i hope i made them think twice about talking bad about people. But anyways, one more week done! i start my job this week! wooo! pray for me please :) and i will pray for you in your teaching :) i love you so much klay. Don't tell kierst but you are really my ultimate goal in life ;) love you have a great week!!! mwah! P.s. i posted this picture of us on facebook and said, "with you, everything was perfect" :) i cant wait for it to be perfect again :) um miguel commented on it haha he said " los sueños existen! Pero ya no es el mismo de ayer! es mejor que ayer! y ya no es gordito!" I dont understand this language. Haha what did he say?!
Klay:
lacey, you are very beautiful. be careful with how you show your body okay? . . . i am kind of a jealous person. and i get really hard feelings very fast. you know when you got sad cuz i sang with the one girl that didn't exist? that's how i feel when you don't dress modestly. lace are you there? i was really not alright this week. i feel sad. i love you. i saw your picture accidentally on facebook. i don't know how i feel and i am very stressed. i didn't sleep last night. i don't like you in vegas it scares me. your dress is very short. . .it made me sad. it had " i don't even have a close guy friend" written all over it. lace i dot want to send you the voice recording i made because i am blowing it out of proportion to what it really was. miguel played the song out loud and i started to get a pounding in my neck from my jugular from the thousand year song. ha. then i got depressed. for the first time in three years. please be a virtuous little girl. did you behave there? i trust you lou and i love you very much okay? you have no idea. i got attacked last night by a ton of horrible feelings and a depression but reading your message makes me feel better that you were being good at least. i understand that you arent perfect. i love you despite your imperfections. work your heart out lace to always choose the right. i need you or i am really not okay. i slept thirty minutes last night. i need you lou. please always act as if i am watching, think always, Would this may klay feel happy and comfortable with what i am doing? i love you lou. i know you are a beautiful thing but be careful. . .
Lacey:
hey klay, i am here. I'm sorry that i made you sad...Ok, here's the thing... we honestly didn't do anything i am ashamed of. No drinking, no clubs, no guys. We get married in 4 months... and i am so excited. But i cannot just sit in my room and cry until you get home. I want to have fun, i want to be a little crazy with my friends. Not do bad things with them...but i want to have fun. I am really sad that i made you depressed, but you can't look on facebook klay. You cant think about it so much that you dont sleep at night. You aren't there to worry about me. I love you klay and i want you happy. I am happy. Ok? and i'm not doing anything that would make me not worthy to go to the temple. The dress wasn't that bad, maybe in the picture it looked worse than it is, but its really not that short.
Klay:
i believe you. :) you just know how i am with you. i trust you too. you are just too beautiful :) i am sorry for what i thought . . . its just been a long time and i want to be with you. i dont want you to be sad either, i understand you have to have fun. just behave okay? thank you for not doing anything to make you not worthy to go to the temple. i know how you feel okay? its just getting really tense in these last few weeks haha. i just need ya lou
i love you lou. :) with all my heart :) i want you to be mine the 27th of june still but mind your Ps and Qs you hear me mister! ;) i forgive you. i am going to make you new voice recordings cuz i was depressed and confused when i made them. . .:) lou, its okay. just make sure that you are always doing what you should. i will show you my study of sadness today and if you read it and tell me what you think i will take the missed scripture study away. . .:)
13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
2 And I will tell you of the wrestle which I had before God, before I received a remission of my sins.
3 Behold, I went to hunt beasts in the forests; and the words which I had often heard my “Husband” speak concerning eternal life, and the joy of the saints, sunk deep into my heart.
4 And my soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my Maker, and I cried unto him in mighty prayer and supplication for mine own soul; and all the day long did I cry unto him; yea, and when the night came I did still raise my voice high that it reached the heavens.
5 And there came a voice unto me, saying: Lacey, thy sins are forgiven thee, and thou shalt be blessed.
8 And he said unto me: Because of thy faith in Christ, whom thou hast never before heard nor seen. And many years pass away before he shall manifest himself in the flesh; wherefore, go to, thy faith hath made thee whole.
9 The Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly out of temptations, and to reserve the unjust unto the day of judgment to be punished:
27 And why should I yield to sin, because of my flesh? Yea, why should I give way to temptations, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my peace and afflict my soul? Why am I angry because of mine enemy?
31 O Lord, wilt thou redeem my soul? Wilt thou deliver me out of the hands of mine enemies? Wilt thou make me that I may shake at the appearance of sin?
32 May the gates of hell be shut continually before me, because that my heart is broken and my spirit is contrite! O Lord, wilt thou not shut the gates of thy righteousness before me, that I may walk in the path of the low valley, that I may be strict in the plain road!
33 O Lord, wilt thou encircle me around in the robe of thy righteousness! O Lord, wilt thou make a way for mine escape before mine enemies! Wilt thou make my path straight before me! Wilt thou not place a stumbling block in my way—but that thou wouldst clear my way before me, and hedge not up my way, but the ways of mine enemy.
34 O Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.
35 Yea, I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ask not amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen.
11 And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.
12 And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities.
13 Now the Spirit knoweth all things; nevertheless the Son of God suffereth according to the flesh that he might take upon him the sins of his people, that he might blot out their transgressions according to the power of his deliverance; and now behold, this is the testimony which is in me.
18 Behold, verily, verily, I say unto you, ye must watch and pray always lest ye enter into temptation; for Satan desireth to have you, that he may sift you as wheat.
19 Therefore ye must always pray unto the Father in my name;
20 And whatsoever ye shall ask the Father in my name, which is right, believing that ye shall receive, behold it shall be given unto you.
21 Pray in your families unto the Father, always in my name, that your wives and your children may be blessed.
13 Do this thing which I have commanded you, and you shall prosper. Be faithful, and yield to no temptation.
1 Behold, I speak unto you, “Lacey”, a few words. Behold, thou art blessed, and art under no condemnation. But beware of pride, lest thou shouldst enter into temptation.
1 Behold, and hearken, O ye elders of my church, saith the Lord your God, even Jesus Christ, your advocate, who knoweth the weakness of man and how to succor them who are tempted.
1 Verily, thus saith the Lord unto you whom I love, and whom I love I also chasten that their sins may be forgiven, for with the chastisement I prepare a way for their deliverance in all things out of temptation, and I have loved you—
13 And after their temptations, and much tribulation, behold, I, the Lord, will feel after them, and if they harden not their hearts, and stiffen not their necks against me, they shall be converted, and I will heal them.
8 And there shall also be many which shall say: Eat, drink, and be merry; nevertheless, fear God—he will justify in committing a little sin; yea, lie a little, take the advantage of one because of his words, dig a pit for thy neighbor; there is no harm in this; and do all these things, for tomorrow we die; and if it so be that we are guilty, God will beat us with a few stripes, and at last we shall be saved in the kingdom of God.
14 They wear stiff necks and high heads; yea, and because of pride, and wickedness, and abominations, and whoredoms, they have all gone astray save it be a few, who are the humble followers of Christ; nevertheless, they are led, that in many instances they do err because they are taught by the precepts of men.
21 And others will he pacify, and lull them away into carnal security, that they will say: All is well in Zion; yea, Zion prospereth, all is well—and thus the devil cheateth their souls, and leadeth them away carefully down to hell.
22 And behold, others he flattereth away, and telleth them there is no hell; and he saith unto them: I am no devil, for there is none—and thus he whispereth in their ears, until he grasps them with his awful chains, from whence there is no deliverance.
30 For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him that receiveth I will give more; and from them that shall say, We have enough, from them shall be taken away even that which they have.
32 Wo be unto the Gentiles, saith the Lord God of Hosts! For notwithstanding I shall lengthen out mine arm unto them from day to day, they will deny me; nevertheless, I will be merciful unto them, saith the Lord God, if they will repent and come unto me; for mine arm is lengthened out all the day long, saith the Lord God of Hosts. 62 And again, verily I say unto you, my friends, I leave these sayings with you to ponder in your hearts, with this commandment which I give unto you, that ye shall call upon me while I am near— 63 Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you; seek me diligently and ye shall find me; ask, and ye shall receive; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.
i am glad that you had fun lou bugs. you make me happy. know that i am not mad at you. that i love you with very profound love that is God given for you. you are very special to me and i dont want to lose you. hey i made you one last week! did i not send it? i will look for it dont worry!
Lacey:
I want you to send me the voice recording..from last week and this week. hey mister...i love you!! :) haha dont doubt that k? and also i want you to know that tiff is a good girl. I dont know how she was in high school, but we are good for each other. She is a friend that I can hang out with and have so much fun without getting into trouble. One night here we got really tempted to drink alcohol, but we didn't because we had each other. I think a lot of people judged her in high school because of who.she hung out with, but she is one of the best girls i know! you dont need to worry about me and her together
Klay:
haha are you silly!!!!!!! it was like two in the morning and i was scared! haha. how bout i send you the journal instead of what i thought about a letter i got from you? love you bug, she had difficulties in high school and that is one of the reasons i was freaking out as well. i was just really scared. you are the most precious thing in my life. lace if i came back without you after having been told by God that i was to be your eternal companion . . .wow. i wouldnt want to move. id just die in a hole lou. i am glad that she is a good example to you :) she is a really good friend of mine too, i am glad that you support each other in the fight of righteousness and behave yourselves. :) i will send you them if you see the sweet side of them and not the oh my gosh im losing my mind side of it ;)
Lacey:
no i want the recording! Klay, i promise you the only way you will come home without me is by your choice. Cause i will always choose you, always. I dont feel worthy of you ever klay...but i've been told that it's right and i love you, so i'm not leavin!
Klay:
the thing is lace about the recording is that i made it right after reading your letter that you wrote me about that other guy and i was just extremely scared. its not going to make sense and it will be way out of proportion if you take it only in the context of las vegas. . . .i connected dots in my head. it was just a lot to take in a matter of moments so it doesnt even make sense lou. you will just hear me panicking and its not necessary to stress yourself over. you are worthy of me my lou! is it not said that they shall be white as wool of the repentant sinner? :) you are perfect to me as you repent continually. what makes me the happiest is that you are able to control yourself better now. . .i love you. i am sorry. its just really hard to be here. .we had a rough week and i flipped. okay? just comfort me. also, i said many things that i didnt want to say in the recordings. . .
Lacey:
Please send it to me klay. I want to hear it. I think i need to hear it klay, like i have a feeling i need to hear it. or i will just wonder this whole week what you said in it. it will all be ok my dear :) i promise, i am praying for you! you can do this! we can do it :)
Klay:
i dont even remember what i said in it. . .but you have to listen in context of everything and try to understand me or i wont send it to you! also take into consideration that it was extremely early in the morning and i was extremely emotional because i thought that you were getting taken away from me. im so glad that you are still mine. lou! i invited you to repent a lot haha i was scared i dont want you to hear it. it gives the impression that i dont trust you but i do, i just dont trust your temptations! haha i dont want it to make you sad. i love you. satan attacked me and made me feel as if you were having the same problems as you had with that kid. the thing is lou is i feel as if you loved me during even that time but you were trying to replace me with him and it didnt work. . .this is why i need to be home with you hahaha i need to hear your voice in your words, look in your eyes and feel your heart. i love the songs that you sang me by the way! :) if i send them to you you have to be understandable and realize that i had all sorts of hormones and emotional probs going on. . .
can you let me fall asleep on your thigh when i get home? can you believe it!!!!!! 7 weeks!!!! 7 weeksssssssssssss!!!! iam so happy! how great. no but seriously. i just need to be comforted haha. its funny cuz the ones that make you want to live are usually those that can make you not wanna. . .so! with that in mind! while you listen to the recordings, act as if you really were not being very good ( as you arent) and i thank you greatly cuz seriously lace, when i get back. everything is brought back to you! i dont have anything else. so just act this out with me and act as if that was the real situation so that we never have to really go through it. . .in real life that we totally didnt go through. . .:) i love you. how great is my joy in my little heart. my jugular is no longer bulging and once again you have brought me at peace with my soul. i love you lou! i am sorry for judging your dress. . .if you want the truth i think you look beautiful. . .and that was the problem ;) hehe oh lou, i think that you are amazing :) i forgive you for everything. do you forgive me for my silliness? i am sorry for correcting strongly in the voice recording. i just felt like a caged up creature in a box that couldnt do anything for you. please forgive me for the dumb things i said.
Lacey:
it wont make me sad i promise! i have repented of all of that letter klay, it is no more. oh klay, i forgive you for whatever you said in it. Did you send it? If not i will freak out. Haha i would love for you to fall asleep on my legs. :) I will write love stories on your back. :) Everything will be ok in 7 weeks! but in those 7 weeks give all you got to the lord. Listen to your comp when he tells you not to freak out haha really i can't wait!! i can't even imagine how it will be to see you again, but i am sure it will be wonderful. :) I have a question...does the no kiss thing start when you leave argentina or when you get home? haha cause i am really sad that i missed a day.
Klay:
i was scared that you had repented for me and not for you and that other guys were trying to hurt you. thank you for repenting. i confide in you. con you see how important that matrimony planning conference will be every sunday ;) where we can help each other out perfectly and understand. i am done with these demons that whisper in my ears. i know that you are faithful. God can tell me that :) i am done with my mind hahahaha. will you share yours ? its a little more stable. . . haha please try to understand me :) haha. i simply want to save you and be with you eternally. and if there are potential threats i get all puffed up like an alley cat to pounce! haha 7 more weeks lou seven more weeks! my comp said to not blow it out of proportion. . . haha i did. . . um. . .awkward :) i love you. i think that these are the ones from last week. . .i could have sworn that i sent them. . .:) have fun lou okay? dont be sad, just be careful and keep me and jesus hugging in your mind hehe then it will be hard hard hard to sin right? hehe hehe oh lou, i know how much it means to you. and me. do you believe in grace? i have an inmense grace for you. you are forgiven. sin no more ;) hehe but seriously if you dont read now. . . you are in big big trouble! this is double or nothing. . if you miss another day that means two days by the time that i get home. . .but as of now, my labios are all yours AFTER being set apart. . . unless you just cant wait. . . um. . . wha?! hehe you have to look for the sweet side okay? imagine it a love movie or something haha with satan trying to take the mans celestial princess and he doesnt want her to ever leave her side. i am sorry for my disconfidence in your friends and college haha. um and in basically all of your surroundings. . .and everything else that could be a possible threat. . . you gotta remember that i have been cooped up for a very long time haahahaha. everything is very very evil to me!!!! hehe just teasing but seriously just see the . . .sweet side if you can find it :) thank you for not drinking or smoking or gambling and especially for not being with boys. Ah! that last one could kill me. i love you lou. just be good!!!!! 7 weeks more and i will be home and you can help me be normal and comfort me in your little arms. you dont have to burn your clothes. . .haha but if they arent appropriate. . . please just wear them in your house. . .your boy is a little sensitive when i comes to other guys with their disgusting pig eyes looking at you innapropriately. . . :) you dont have to move back to your house. you arent being sneaky. . .that is just what satan whispered to me to destroy our eternal matrimony. i know that he was working hard to try to kill me. i felt my jugular pulsating all night. he doesnt want me with you. he knows what we are going to bring to pass! we will do this lou!!!!! i know that you are my help meet!!!! keep working hard! just know that after writing you i feel happy. and comforted and my perspective has changed a whole lot okay? i said things that i wouldnt say okay? forgive me.
Satan will not win! read your scriprtures double today okay? and i will forgive you. those scriptures i sent are for temptations cuz i pictured you surrounded by billions of temptations and i wanted to protect you! :) get to know jesus really well in these next seven weeks okay? work hard in school! i love your guts my koala! :)
Lacey:
Phew! i was so sad! haha no more missed days i promise :) thanks for forgiving me :) i always see the sweet side klay. I know you just want to protect me, just know that heavenly father knows my heart. He knows i'm not trying to be bad. And i feel like you know my heart. I didn't repent for you.. i felt bad cause i felt like i betrayed you, but i repented for the actual sin, not because i felt guilty about me and you. I love you!!!
Klay:
welks babe, welks ;) hehe
i trust you lou. but satan doesnt. i feel the same way with you about my problems. . .that Heavenly Father knows my heart. i feel like i betray you too. oh lou. we will be free to do His will in a short time. focus a lot in the scripture in isaiah in the letter okay? in my blessing, it says that i will heal many with the gift of hands, and also that i will be able to call upon others to heal me. . .i ask every time for my migraines ha but it doesnt work. . .but i can stand migraines. . .but i cant stand my spiritual sicknesses. and they will be taken away from me and i will be more perfect thanks to you. i can just focus everything in my life on you and never feel sad again. you are my hero lou. thank you for being patient with me and my mental . .. spasms? i didnt have them as much when i was by your side. . .only one or two . . .but . . as my blessings states . . .i need to call upon those to heal me. . and your comfort and companionship is the only thing that has made me okay in all of my life. for that i was scared. i love you be patient with me hahai promise that i will be a lot more calm in a few weeks okay? i will kick the devil when he whispers to me okay? he is such a horrible person. he just doesnt want us happy. i love you bug. work hard hard hard!
i trust you lou. but satan doesnt. i feel the same way with you about my problems. . .that Heavenly Father knows my heart. i feel like i betray you too. oh lou. we will be free to do His will in a short time. focus a lot in the scripture in isaiah in the letter okay? in my blessing, it says that i will heal many with the gift of hands, and also that i will be able to call upon others to heal me. . .i ask every time for my migraines ha but it doesnt work. . .but i can stand migraines. . .but i cant stand my spiritual sicknesses. and they will be taken away from me and i will be more perfect thanks to you. i can just focus everything in my life on you and never feel sad again. you are my hero lou. thank you for being patient with me and my mental . .. spasms? i didnt have them as much when i was by your side. . .only one or two . . .but . . as my blessings states . . .i need to call upon those to heal me. . and your comfort and companionship is the only thing that has made me okay in all of my life. for that i was scared. i love you be patient with me hahai promise that i will be a lot more calm in a few weeks okay? i will kick the devil when he whispers to me okay? he is such a horrible person. he just doesnt want us happy. i love you bug. work hard hard hard!
Lacey:
welks?? what? haha Just know that i'm not hiding things from you, i would tell you if something was going on. There are no more letters dropping bombs on you dont worry. I am being careful!
Klay:
haha lace, i am trying to adapt myself to the "cool" life again. . .welks means welcome in "college talk". :) hehe alright. . .im done trying to be cool. . .im a nerd :) i think that i sent the right voice recordings. . . thank you for posting pictures of us together on facebook :) it makes me feel special! have you found your ring that you want yet? i promise that i will try to be normal, i will stop being angry about things i cant control, i will try my best :) lace, you calm me :) if things are going on, just tell me, you know me. . . i am full of love for you and your help meet. . .i am here to help you meet up. . .haha um lou. . .i sound so dumb in the voice recording. .
Lacey:
yikes...welks. hahaha you make me laugh :) "will" welcome in lacey's lips :) Klay, i love you no matter what the recording sounds like. Haha just chill! ;) all is well. I wont be hurt or mad, just happy that you care
Klay:
hehe dont judge me . . .just find ways to help my pathetic ability to express myself after two years okay? hehe lou i am really excited to read that book that your mommy got you! i love that woman! thank you ;) you will probably have to hit me sometimes during the eternities you snap me out of it. . .hehe then just give me a peck on the cheek and everything be cool :)
Lacey:
i will help you no worries :) how was your week earlier? i really think we will struggle a bit when you get back, with trying to get you to be normal again haha i will try to be patient though, and you be patient with me and we can work through it together :)
Klay:
there is this thing called carnival where they all dress up and dance around like animals and then they release the devil. . .so it is a challenging week this week . . .it is ending in three days. hehe i think that there will be no severe struggles that can be solved shortly tickling you and giving you nice compliments :) we will work through it all, i just need to see your face. its been a long time haha. we will make it little fish, jus keep swimming :)
Lacey:
Oh yeah you told me about that, i'm glad it ends soon! the members participate in that?? Haha you're right :) and if i ever talk too much you can just kiss my face to shut me up :) haha
Klay:
no hay problema :) te ayudo a callarte :) hehe
Klay:
no hay problema :) te ayudo a callarte :) hehe
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